Somethings Just Don't Change, They Have To be Accepted

I seem to have lost my sanity again. I know that at times I need to just suck it in and accept facts that somethings just are that way.

Over the past year of 2009, it was an incredible year of learning and also finding myself. You can call it soul searching. It's not all fun and games for me. I had a really tough time figuring out my life and what I, as an individual, would like to do. I did many odd jobs and spent a lot of time thinking of my future and goals. To say that I have had that all figured out is a lie. I honestly am still in the dark about my future and I guess I'll never fully know it. Only God can decide on how my life will become.

I did go through and i think I'll always go through this. The feeling of being alone. I think everyone goes through that often but I have learned that people aren't everything. What makes You you is what you do. So the next time you feel left out, screw it, life goes on :)

Although I had my freedom to do the things I want, somethings felt forced and unnatural. I accepted them. I did though, meet new and old friends and I'm grateful to God for that. But that doesn't mean that things went easier for me. I faced many "life" problems alone. I just don't think that anyone is in the same state as I'm in, and probably no one was able to help. That's fine though, I guess everyone does go through their own problems alone.

To sum up 2009 is pretty simple for me, I realized that:

I am capable to do things that might seem unapproachable or too much to handle.

I am perfectly fine being by myself.

I am the only obstacle in my life.

I can do all things through Christ that strenghtens me.

Do something...

2010, Making It Mine...

The start of a new decade, seems pretty surreal to me, and yet somehow nothing seems different. I guess a new year doesn't make the difference, it's what YOU do that makes things new. I want to achieve so much more this year, and in the years that follows. I know it's easier said than done, but just wait and see... I do want to own my life, not giving in to the "things" that surround me or what others tell me to do. That's not living to me, achieving what YOU want is living life. So that's what I plan to do this year, to be out of the ordinary and be ME. :)

Do something, Keep looking :)