Life Must Go On

Ever wonder what it would be like to just do whatever you want without having to face its consequences? That, to me is the must amazing thing one can actually experience. To me, life is just a constant journey that never seem slightly interesting. I find that things that happen are just so common and ordinary. I sometimes just wish that I would experience something so amazing that no one else have. A happening that is only meant for me but wishes are dreams, something in your thoughts and aren't always meant to be brought to reality. I would want to have at least a fraction of what real life has to offer. To be honest, the whole riding along with life and waiting to see what it brings is not exciting anymore. Taking control of my life, stewarding it, that's what I must do now.

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Hurry Up Already...

Waiting for something to pass is really not as easy as it seems. Time, for example, passes by fast when you look back but when at the present it seems as though it stands still. I don't exactly enjoy the moment of waiting, it's nerve wrecking and stressful. I can't wait for my exams to end but I am also afraid of what will happen after school life. You know that feeling where you get all excited about doing something and you've even planned it out in details but at the end it does not go through. That's how I feel right now, all my plans on travelling and going places after secondary school doesn't seem like it's possible any. Either way, I still can't wait for next year. I am still waiting for my letter from PLKN, don't know why, but I do hope for it to come soon. For some reason I have this urge to just want to vacate my life and just do something different and fun and I want that so bad, even NS is sounding funner than it is. right now I'm like in the midst of my SPM, it will end pretty soon but the waiting is still bad. Freedom, come to me!!

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Being Comfortable

There's always something that everyone wish they had or can do. Whether it is a skill or an achievement, there is a definite thing each person wants in their lives. I've always wanted to be that guy everyone notices or would want to be around with or talk to. I guess i just lack that outgoing, likable personality. So throughout most of my life, I've never been really comfortable with just being me. I always try to fit in and be truly accepted or at least to know that there's one person out there who notices me. I guess sometimes I lose myself pretending to be someone I'm not just for people to know me. You can say I lack attention. But I recently noticed that no matter what I do, I will never be really noticed as me unless I stop pretending to be someone I'm not. It's never easy to feel alone even when in a crowd or feel invisible right in front of people. The only thing one can ever do is just be yourself and be comfortable by being you. Who cares if you are alone now, stay true to yourself and sooner or later, someone will notice you for who you are.

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