I Am Smart, Don't Tell Me Otherwise Cause I Just Won't Give A Damn :)N

Yea... Blogging :) Not something I find fun anymore :) But freestyle writing and no boundaries expression, I think I can do a little more of them. I've been super busy the past few weeks, mainly with assignments and group presentation preparations. Done a lot of hard work (by which I mean, sacrificing late nights to do last minute work). Ok, so my method of working is still leaving things to the last minute but I don't see much of a problem in that for now.

Let me tell you a little bit about my friend Stress. My relationship with stress is just great :) I am motivated, inspired, pushed to the limits by him. So he isn't a friend I would hang out much with, but he isn't that bad of a guy you know. I think I work harder with him around. After today, he's gone away.

My preparations for my BIG presentations were today. I used the plural because I had two different presentations. FML. But that didn't kill me, no worries. But it did cause me to get more anxious and nervous. I felt the adrenaline rush flowing through me (ok fine it was exaggerated but still it was intense and exciting).

Advertising Principles Group Presentation, I honestly expected that my group would have and could have done way better if time was used better, but unfortunately, our last minute work only helped us enough to maybe borderline pass. I'm not complaining or anything, I think everyone did remarkably well, considering the lack of preparation, but it's all good now. What I'm freaking glad was my Mass Comm Group Presentation. It feels pretty damn awesome to have all the hard work you put into something paid off well. We got an A btw. :) And it is mainly thanks to Zoe Lim, my group mate who actually did a whole bunch of stuff :) including editing videos (which you can watch by clicking herehttp://www.youtube.com/user/RapeInPrevention. It's pretty awesome how she does this really cool stuff like taking pictures, filming vids and editing them. And of course I did some work too, if you were thinking "Jared's a lazy basterd".

Posters for my Ad Principles presentation:

And these are done for my Mass Comm presentation:

I know they look really amateurish. But who cares, I am one. :) The first two pictures were taken and edited by me (bruise marks by Zoe), yes, that's why it looks kinda crappy. The last two pictures were taken by Zoe and edited by me :) The girl is my other group mate, Jeen Pei.

Yes, so my last few weeks have been pretty preoccupied and sadly I have forsaken many other things for that, like skipping church service (forgive me Lord), watching little to none television, sleeping too little and NOT WORKING! I gave up on working too! Ok not forever lar, just for the time being. I need to have "Me time" too you know. But the feeling of not working is starting to affect me greater each passing moment. Everyday, my wallet gets lighter and my bank account losses more digits. I need the cash, hence "Me time" will have to wait. Good news is, my break is just around the corner. That means more free time :) I just have to pass one more obstacle, exams. It's my last lap before my sem ends, so why not do it well eh?

On another note, I'm getting a Canon DSLR soon :) yay!

peace out :)

Sadly, This Is Reality

I wish I can be a rockstar, traveling the world and being seen and heard. I wish I can be a hobo, living in the streets with no responsibility whatsoever. I wish I could be anywhere else but here. Dreams are so easy to dream, but living it is ten times harder. I hate the fact that I feel hopeless in life so often nowadays. I don't like the feeling of being trapped or having your dreams killed by the reality I'm in. Can someone just take me to the moon? :)

It really isn't as bad as it probably is, but I feel as if I'm stuck in a hole that is twelve feet deep and there's no way out. Somehow I'm trapped and exposed at the same time. People seem to see my weaknesses, I feel transparent and vulnerable. That isn't a very good position to be in. I like my privacy and I like things kept to myself, don't go revealing personal stuff.

I feel even worse these days. Must be the stress from assignments and the fact that I have no life outside of my college. Even church seems dull these days. Damn it, why can't things just be easier? Why must reality be such an ass? I am trying to keep myself calm and collected and it's really harder said than done. Anger and frustration just keep bursting out of me in the night, it really sucks, it sucks bad.

Okay, so there, I've vent out my frustrations, some of it at least...

Freedom, pls come my way...

Turn The Lights Off...

If you haven't already realize, my blog is kinda dead, I know I should update it more often, but I'm honestly not inspired anymore. BUT... This post is kinda out of the ordinary, so I have to blog about what happened last night. After work, my colleague and I went for a movie, Iron Man 2! Yea, the movie was, Action packed. So, what happened was after the movie we headed back to the car. I am currently driving this really old tank @Volvo. It turns out that I forgot to turn my headlights off. YES! My battery died, I couldn't even get the door to unlock, had to manually use the key and turn it (the alarm went off and I almost died of stress). We tried many methods, like pushing the car to give it a start. But it was a failure. Screw that, I was tired and pissed and sleepy. It killed the mood that night. I kept praying, begging God for some miracle or a way to get over the situation. Praise God, He answered my prayers. Two awesome guys with a Ford Ranger were there and we asked for help. Amazingly the driver had a jump start cable, which he so magically pulled out from his back seat. It was as if he was prepared or knew someone would need it. It was truly an amazing coincidence, but I do believe that God was real and at work then. That incident left me shocked and amazed. My colleague and I were like stunned with joy at the miracle :)

Praise the Lord, Amen :D