Sadly, This Is Reality

I wish I can be a rockstar, traveling the world and being seen and heard. I wish I can be a hobo, living in the streets with no responsibility whatsoever. I wish I could be anywhere else but here. Dreams are so easy to dream, but living it is ten times harder. I hate the fact that I feel hopeless in life so often nowadays. I don't like the feeling of being trapped or having your dreams killed by the reality I'm in. Can someone just take me to the moon? :)

It really isn't as bad as it probably is, but I feel as if I'm stuck in a hole that is twelve feet deep and there's no way out. Somehow I'm trapped and exposed at the same time. People seem to see my weaknesses, I feel transparent and vulnerable. That isn't a very good position to be in. I like my privacy and I like things kept to myself, don't go revealing personal stuff.

I feel even worse these days. Must be the stress from assignments and the fact that I have no life outside of my college. Even church seems dull these days. Damn it, why can't things just be easier? Why must reality be such an ass? I am trying to keep myself calm and collected and it's really harder said than done. Anger and frustration just keep bursting out of me in the night, it really sucks, it sucks bad.

Okay, so there, I've vent out my frustrations, some of it at least...

Freedom, pls come my way...